So much stuff orz

My little sister bought me so much when I was in the hospital that she has given to me since i've gotten out and gurl. If she actually had a job I'm p sure my room would be covered in stuff right now. Like I think all the stuff she has gotten me is p cool but its a bit much sometimes.

Finally home!

I just had brain surgery so please excuse my poor English. I'm sure you will as one of the main reasons I started this blog was to improve my writing since I never really focused on writing again after my first brain surgery~
Also if you are sensitive to medical talk either prepair yourself or skip this ramble!


I actually got home over a week ago...but still. My surgery went great (as far as I know!) During my last surgery it took over 22 hours and I couldnt walk for like a month but this time the surgery only took 8 hours and I was walking in a few days. I have had some troubles, but most of them are starting to clear up. My right hand was pretty numb after surgery but today feeling came back to one finger tip so theres only two finger tips that are still numb. It kills my hand when ever I have to reach out for something.

my left hand is still shaking a lot. It took a while but my eyes are starting to focus a lot better as well, I still need to take my glasses off when I look at something up close though.
They haven't taken my stitches (not what they are called but I can't be bothered right now) out :l I went to the hospital to get them taken out on Wednesday but they decided to keep them in for another week :l I don't know if any of you have ever had the back of your head sewed shut but its not great. They gave me some antibiotics and some muscle relaxers though. I hate pills though, I never learned how to take them properly xD So three times a day I get to sit here and try and force a couple pills down :l

Markipliar (I  fear I may have spelled his name wrong) made a donation to the hospital while I was there so that was p cool of him :D((and some other random group made a donation that same week. both of 100k) The hospital has been doing a lot of physical updates in the pas five years, which is nice since now my appointments are on the first floor no the fifth- but I wish they would allow the nurses to update the recovery floor with the money. Its literally the exact same as it was five years ago. And if you are kinda fo anti-social like me being on that floor is kind of the worse as its just not build for people like us :c

What else? ...I am not aloud to wash my hair with real shampoo until the take the stitches out so I haven't washed my hair since feb 21 :l I am aloud to wash it with baby shampoo but y'all know that doesn't really do much

I have been getting on msp everyday again since i've been home and there will be a new event starting soon! I'll try to have a written guide for it but I'm not sure if i'll be able to manage it so i'll apologize right now if I can't. ITs really uncomfortable to sit here. The stitches actually make doing anything uncomfortable lols~

Like always if you ever need me feel free to comment or email me at Enirhtakb@gmail.com

I might not make a whole lot of sense right now but i'll try!

2016 New Years Resolutions/Goals

You guys know I love New Years Resolutions. Obviously, its good to be constantly thinking of ways to improve things all year round, but I really love having one day to really sit down and think things through :] All the other people also making nyr also really inspire me :D

They also help weed out the negative people that you may be following~


First lets look at last years resolutions

My Resolution list from last year 

     The First thing on the list is Achieve splits. That did not happen xD I was really sick this year and didn't get to workout/do as much yoga as I would like to. But that's okay~  I did get close with Blogilates little splits challenge so maybe i'll try that again some time.

     Next is "Read more, Watch less" tbh, I've never been a big TV person. I feel like I just put that on my list to look like a ~cool instagram girl~ But I did have a problem with not being able to sleep without a TV on, which I now can do. I have a huge fear of the dark, and I still do to an extent, but its not as bad as it was! I have had a huge problem with concentrating so I didn't read many read books this year. I did read approx 1000 fanfictions though so....close enough.

     Now onto my biggest accomplishment: Starting a new project! When I made this I was really thinking about having a blog and starting a Youtube channel. I've had multiple blogs throughout the years but I haven't really stuck with one since I was a kid. This is mostly because i'm a really bad writer and don't leave my house much, so I don't have much to say. If any of you follow me on insta, especially if you have been following since the beginning you can tell my writing has gotten so much better. Its obviously not what I would consider "good writing" but its a lot better then it was. I haven't spoken to my doctors yet so i'm not sure if its changed anything at a deeper level, but it has made a significant enough change that I actually noticed it. And I don't have the best self esteem so I rarely notice improvement in myself/others so the fact that even I have noticed this improvement says a lot to me!
     Next is my youtube channels. I've love youtube since the beginning and have been toying with starting a chennel for year, but like I said before i'm quite boring and have low self esteem so I wasn't sure what to do. I don't mind if people know what I look like, but I didn't want my face in videos. Then I discovered ASMR.  At the beginning of the year I was not sleeping. From December 2014~Feb 2015 I would  fall asleep around 3am everyday. I suffer from cystic acne so this was not good for me. I would have ~ 8 on my face at all time and I just looked really sick. Once I found ASMR everything reset and I have been getting to sleep at a great time ever since. While watching it I noticed a lot of the people just showed from the neck down- so it was perfect for me! I may not be able to be the most active on it, but I do see myself posting/growing this channel for years to come.
     Then there was my MSP channel. Again, i'm shy so I don't talk much in my videos, but its been fun having something to make and put out there every week. In the upcoming year I hope to improve both these channels.

     Lastly "Be more social" this one was okay. I have really horrible anxiety, to the point where I can barely even read text messages from my Parents/Friends. Although I haven't gotten over that much this year, I have been talking to people more on social media. I try to check all my comments and reply to them where I can. So I consider this one a success...even if its a small one :]

Now lets think of some new ones,

     Personally, I try to keep things simple. I get over whelmed very easily so if I made a list of 100 things I would just give up and get nothing done. So what I really like to do is make big broad resolution and then make smaller ones that that will help me achieve said resolution.

     Number one: I want to improve my Youtube Channels. I don't have any subscriber goals, those may come later this year, but I just want to improve the quality. For my ASMR channel I really want to purchase a microphone- I know buying things probably isn't a good resolution...but its what I need to improve the channel so i'm putting it down :D
     For my MSP channel I want to branch out into more games. I am currently working on a re-branding for it, I just need to good name! I will stick to my MSP roots, but it was created to be a variety channel so I would love to add some variety back into it xD When I first made it I posted  my ASMR videos on it but since making a separate ASMR channel I have only posted MSP things.
If I get the nerve to do it maybe i'll ask my friend to start a channel with me. We both love to mess around on the internet and have talked about starting a project together before...so maybe this will be the year I actually do it! I have already proven to myself that I can gather "fans" to something I have made (even if its just a themed instagram account) so my confidence is slightly higher then it has been in that regard. Now I just need to work up the nerve to ask my friend xD


     My second resolution is to shop alone. Or at least have the allusion of shopping alone. I'm not sure if other people have this happen, but if i'm even a foot in front of my friends/family when shopping my vision starts to go white. I feel really overwhelmed and scared. I want to try and lessen this effect. When I go shopping I want to try and walk around a store by myself. At the time of writing I have a phone that won't send messages when i'm not at home. If I have my data on it sometimes does, but its not reliable, so I don't feel comfortable being completely alone- but maybe if I switch to a more reliable service I may try and shop completely alone.


     Next I need to make a low impact workout routine.  I have a hard time doing "hard" workouts. I get a head ache when I run or do Pilates. I do need to speak with my doctors and maybe go back to the physical therapist for a few sessions to find out what can work for me- but I also want to do some experimenting on my own. I try to do yoga but it too hurts my head, plus I find it super boring. I know my sister got me some exercise things for Christmas so hopefully it will be things that help me out with this goal.

    That's really it for now...there are other goals I have for the new year but I don't really feel comfortable sharing them just yet!






Some inspiration:

*When thinking of resolutions try to focus on a specific part of your life. Whats happen at school. How are your grade. Are you content. Think about things you would like to "change" when it comes to this aspect of your life. There are a lot of things that are simply out of your control- so try and find one thing that you do have control over and focus your energy into that, instead of running yourself into the ground trying to fix something that cannot be fixed.

*Even if something has been done a million times. Even if its not "unique" its still unique to you. You have never done it. No one has seen you do it. So if there's a project you want to do, a video you want to make, but its been done before, ignore that! Just make what you want to make. Keep in mind you will not make something that pleases everyone. If you goal is to please everyone or make something for everyone, you are probably better off not posting content to the internet.

*I want to challenge you to do something new this year. It can be something big like running a marathon to something small that trying out a new form of entertainment (like listening to a podcast or watching a new genera of movie you've never seen before) Even these small new things can make a big difference in your life.

Vom

I logged on to MSP and immediately I got a message that said "hey mom." barf xD

I understand you are not getting your parental needs met by your real guardians, but you are not going to find it in me either...unless you like being ignored because let's be honest, that's what you're gonna get from me c;

Plus...there are kids on MSP that are young enough to be my actual children (if I had kids really young) and I just don't need that reminder rn.

The Gender Tag

I've done this on my ASMR channel a while ago, but I thought, might as well do it here too :D I wish I had someone to talk to about all this kind of stuff as a kid so maybe reading someone elses thought might help? 
Although i'm trash at helping people, you can always email me at EnirhtakB@gmail.com if you ever want to talk to someone who doesn't know you about as issues you might have, or issues you may be to scared to tell people afk about. 

The Gender Tag

1. How do you self-identify your gender, and what does that definition mean to you?
 I don't identify as any gender. So I guess you could call me a "non binary" person or whatever other term people use to describe people who don't identify as male or female. 
2. What pronouns honor you?
 Whatever people want to call me, i'm okay with. If people really really care, She/Her pronouns are what most people who call me. I don't usually like being called "they" though. It's just not my thing. But, when it doubt- use they. That's what I usually do when I talk about someone and I don't really know them well. 
3. Describe the style of clothing that you most often wear.
 ...Normal? I think if most people saw my wardrobe they would think "boring emo" xD 
4. Talk about your choices with body hair. How do you style your hair? Do you have facial hair? What do you choose to shave, or choose not to shave?
  I rarely cut the hair on my head (tbh I rarely brush it too). I have a bit of dark facial hair but I usually shave it off, I've never professionally waxed my eyebrows. Although I kind of want to, just to see what I would look like. I tried to wax my brows at home once and ripped off so much skin :x 
  My face is the only thing I shave regularly. Every once in awhile I like to shave my legs and under my arms, but not too often. Just whenever the mood strikes. 
5. Talk about cosmetics. Do you choose to wear makeup? Do you paint your nails? What types of soaps and perfumes do you use if any?
  I rarely wear any sort of makeup. When I was younger I would slap so much make up on my face because I hated myself. It was so bad that at night when I got out of the shower I would put makeup back on because I didn't want anyone, even family, to see me without it. If I forgot to put some on before school I would make myself sick so I could go home. I stopped wearing it for a few years and now that i'm not so self conscious I do like to play with it every once in awhile, but if I ever think any bad thought about myself or think about how others will see me, I wipe off all the makeup and don't wear any. I'm always fearful i'll fall back into my old ways. 
 I will do my nails like twice a year.
 When it comes to soaps I just use whatever is cheapest and smells nice. I'm not brand loyal so I can't list any specifics. 
6. Have you experienced being misgendered? If so, how often?
Not really? I mean i'm sure most people assume i'm cis girl because of the way I look/dress most days- but it's not something that really bothers me. 
7. Do you experience dysphoria? How does that affect you? 
Yes! I have wanted a reduction since I hit puberty. I have thought about getting full top surgery, but I'm not 100% sure that would make me happy. Most days, I don't think about it, but it really sucks not feeling comfortable in the clothes I like :l I really wish I was flat chested. There are days when I really wish I had a male body as well. Although I recently have started to think of myself as a part of the trans* community (although on the outskirts of it) I don't know if transitioning is something that would make me happy. It's not something i've given really serious though to yet. 
8. Talk about children. Are you interested in having children? Would you want to carry a child if that were an option for you? Do you want to be the primary caretaker for any children you may have?
I don't really like kids. I can't see myself ever having to have one. But, in the future if I do happen to have a partner that wants kids, I wouldn't be 100% opposed to adopting/fostering older children. But I have no interesting in having a baby in my house. 
9. Talk about money. Is it important to you to provide for a family financially if you choose to have one? Is it important to you that you earn more than any partner you may have? Do you prefer to pay for things like dates? Are you uncomfortable when others pay for you or offer to pay for you?
It's not importants for me to make more then my partner...as long as we can support ourselves and our happy, that's all that matters. I would not want to be in a relationship with someone who felt they had to make more money though, that just sends off so many red flags in my mind. I've never been on a real date, but I think if its a first date the person who initiated it should pay, unless other wise talked about. Personally, I think everyone should just pay for themselves. 
I'm not uncomfortable when people pay for me or offer to pay for me..mostly because i'm broke and not gonna turn down a free meal xD Unless they are creepy and seem like the type to make people owe them....then theres no want I would let them pat
10. Anything else you want to share about your experience with gender?
 I guess this mostly goes out to other people, but just know there's no right or wrong way to be a person. If you identify as a girl, you can like cars and being buff, that doesn't make you a boy. If you identify as a boy and you can like to wear skirts or wear makeup, that doesn't make you a girl. It doesn't make you a freak or weird. You're just a person. What's between your legs does not decide what your interest are. You're not trans just because you like things that society tells you not too. 
It's all about how you personally feel. 
 Remember, no matter what you are, you never have to tell another person before you are ready. Some people will be ready to come out at 12 and others will need more time. That's okay! Take your time and try to not to force yourself or other out before they are ready.

Would you rather

A "scary" would you rather I found online :3

Would you...

*Go ghost hunting

*Be haunted by ghosts

~I would rather go ghost hunting, its actually something my friends and I have been talking about doing for a while, as there are a lot of "haunted" places near where we live, but i've been to afraid to go along with it.

Would you...

*Be eaten alive by a revolting monster

*Eat the monster's flesh raw

~I guess I would rather be the monsters flesh raw. At least that way I have a chance of living.

Would you...

*Scream whenever you're scared, so whoever or whatever's after you will find and kill you

*Be so scary that even the unknown and inexplicable fear you (note: you have no friends and your family hates you)

~I don't know...I guess I would rather be really scaring..then I can rule over all the other demons :3

Would you...

*Get killed by a scarecrow that came to life

*Marry a scarecrow then get killed by it 

~Well, i'm gonna die either way so might as well just get it over with xD No use dragging it out with a marriage. :D

Would you...

*Wake up with a psycho killer on your bedside

*Go to bed knowing a psycho killer is watching you from outside your window

~I would rather go to bed knowing they are out there watching. It not guaranteed they will get in and murder you then :3

If anyone reads this- i'm curious to know what you would do :D Tell me what you would pick (it can be one or all) and why you picked that answer

Scariest Thing Tag

1. Scariest real-life experience? 
     I can't really swim so a lot of my scary experiences are of almost drowning because I forgot said fact. Most people might assume having brain surgery would be the scariest and tbh when the radiologist first called and told me I cried for like eight hours straight, but I don't remember ever feeling fear because of it. Maybe its because I have a (potentially misplaced) trust of doctors. 
    Riding a rollar coaster for the first time was also horrific xD If any of you have ever been to a place in Ohio called "Kings Island" there's a ride called DiamondBack- my first real roller coaster- in it you only have a little orange disk holding you in (I think they have since added more belts? idk i'm not aloud to ride coasters anymore) And it feels like you are flying out of it. I screamed the whole time and my friend laughed at me ;-; she laughed the whole rest of the day. That was pretty traumatizing, but after riding the first time I rode it like a hundred times and the only thing that scared me was the first drop. 

2. Scariest paranormal experience? 
     I don't believe in the paranormal, but before I had surgery I use to hallucinate really bad, it was usually just little things like whispering sounds or hands on my shoulder but the scariest ones are as followed: Once I was p sick and didn't feel like being in my room so I sleep on the couch, I woke up in the morning and just kind of laid there for a bit then suddenly my head was pushed into the cough and my head was ruffled (for lack of a better word) really roughly. After it happened I shot up and not one was there. We lived in an old house and I didn't hear any of the floor board creak so I knew no one was around. This was before I knew about what was wrong with me so it pretty safe to assume I almost peed my self when it happened ;-; It was also horrid because I had to leave for the bus at 6am. Where I live at 6am you are walking around blind and I didn't own a phone at this time so..its was an awful day for me. 
     The second was a  few days after I got home after living in the hospital for a few weeks. The first day I sleep in the living room because I still couldn't walk and it was just easier for me to be in an accessible place (my room was in the back corner of the house) The next day though. Oh man. The next day. I decided to sleep in my room because the living room was super cold, but I asked one of my sisters to sleep in the room with me, just in case. I will say, the only time I had ever sleep in a room with no lights at all, had been when I was staying in the hospital, and then it wasn't that scary because the nurses and other patients were so dang loud, and one of my parents was always with me. Anyways, I woke up sometime in the middle of the night, I wasn't use to be able to sleep through the night again yet so this was usual for me. Then I heard the couch my sister was sleeping on creak and foot steps walk towards the door. I assumed it was my sister getting up to go to the bathroom or possibly getting ready for school. But the steps stopped and the door never opened. I looked over and I saw someone standing there, I saw the silhouette of there legs and I freaked the fudge out! I flipped on the TV and saw my sister was still asleep, I still couldn't walk at this point so I got on my little walker and rolled over to my sister and woke her up. I asked if she had just gotten up and she said no ;-;  Even though I knew what had been causing my hallucinations at this point I was still really freaked out and it took me years to be able to sleep with the lights and TV off again xD 

3. Have you ever known anyone convicted of a violent crime? 
     I have a childhood friends who's older brother murdered someone..so..thats a thing. 

4. Are you afraid of the dark? Why or why not?
     Kind of, it took me a long time to be able to sleep in the dark. To be honest the only reason I started to sleep in the dark again is because my TV broke xD But i'm not afraid of the dark becasue in my mind- if something is gonna come kill me- its gonna just do it. Having the lights on isn't going to save me

5. Does your hometown have any scary stories or legends? 
     Not that I know of, but my friends use to tell me creepy stories about the "corn man" Where I grew up was called a City, but its was more of a rural city, there were lot of farms and hella corn fields. Anyways, my friends told me the story of the "corn man" who, live the names suggest, lives in the corn and at night he comes out and looks in kids room to see if they are sleeping...they never said what would happen if you weren't but I never wanted to stay at their house again. 
     I'm gonna go google if we had any real ones now;

6. What is your favorite urban legend?
     I love any legend about creatures, like the Jersey devil or big foot. I just think they are so fascinating to read about. I looked up some Urban legends to see if any of them knocked a memory loose and I remembered doing the bloody Mary mirror trick a lot as a kid. Spoiler alert, it made me cry every time. I'm pretty sure, even today as a certified old person, I would still cry if you made me do it. 

7. What is your scariest nightmare? 
     I'm pretty sure i've told this one before but it was of dolls. I use to have dreams where I would see them move but every time I went to point them out to a family member, the dolls would take my voice. When ever it came back and I would start to tell a family member I saw them move one of the dolls would poke out of somewhere and hold its finger up to its mouth in a "shh" motion and my voice would go again ;-; The doll that was mainly feature in my dream is RIGHT OUT SIDE MY ROOM RN T-T My mom decided the hallways outside my room was a good place to keep all the dolls...
    I also had a dream right after we got our Rott Kiya, that she was a serial killer...I know it sounds silly but I couldn't be alone with that dog for months. 

c:

     The amount of time I spend on writing scripts for my new MSP tutorials is maybe a bit crazy xD 

I think it will be worth it thought- Especially based on the amount of nice comments/emails I get when ever I post one of them :] I can't wait to get this new mic so the tutorials will be even better :]

     

     I want to start blogging more often but I can never think of MSP related things to post- but I follow other MSP blog and they rarely post MSP things so I really don't feel bad about posting non-themed things~ 

 

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New Design

     Creating a new design for this blog. When I first created it, I just went with a basic premade design but I think its time for a change. Right now i'm working on creating a new header- right now its just a edit I made a long while before making this blog.
    I think I might try and change it every season...it just depends how easy it is :]
     Because I love Halloween, that will be the first theme :] I'll try not to make it too spoopy~

Things I Am Not...

     Based on some emails I have been getting, I thought I should clear some things up.

   
     I am just a random person who plays MSP. I got involved with the site because my little sister and goddaughter play. As I played with them on this site for a while, I noticed there weren't very many helpful guides for it. That's one of the reason I started my Instagram, then this blog when I needed more space.
     I am not in anyway, shape, or form associated with MSP/MSP Staff. I can try and help you, I can try and answer any questions, and I can try and walk you through any problems you have with your accounts. But I do NOT work for MovieStarPlanet. I cannot fix problems with your account. I cannot clear up any glitches.
     I cannot unlock/unban your account. I can help you write an email to send to MSP. I can look through your account and tell you what rules you have broken, but I cannot unlock you. Again, I do not work for MSP. You can come to me with any problem you may have on MSP, but I cannot guarantee I know the answer.
     I also cannot buy you VIP. Well, I can. I can buy you a gift certificate, but I won't. I do not want to buy you VIP. If in the future I decide I want to, i'll have a give away. If you want VIP you either need to ask your guardian or get a job and buy it yourself.


  
tl;dr I'm just a random person writing a blog for MSP. I do not work for MovieStarPlanet, so if you have real problem with your account you shouldn't waste your time emailing me, you should go straight to MSP. I can help you figure out what to say to them, but I personally am going to be no help.




Also...If you email me can you please keep all emails in one conversation. Sending a new email each time makes it difficult for me to help you as the information is going to be all over the place.

Messages

I'm really thankful for everyone on Instagram who messaged me after my emotion post last night. 

There's one thing you need to understand though. I will try and get to everyone's message eventually but I do have other things to do. I'm not someone who is attached at the hip to their phone. It unlikely that I will ever respond to you within an hour of you messaging me. If you need to talk to someone urgently there are a ton of resources online, and other people on MSP/Instagram/anywhere who are available 24/7. If you get angry with me about not responding you are only guaranteeing that I will not be reading your message. 

I want to try and help if I can, but you guys are not my number one priority. 

I have work, I have my own mental and physical health. My friends and family's mental and physical health. I'm not a therapist. I'm not a professional when its comes to mental health in any way shape or form. I see a therapist, so I can try and tell you things they have told me...but thats as much as I can give on that front. So while i'm thankful that you feel safe enough to message me, you need to do so knowing that it will take a while for me to get back at you. Also know, even if I have read your message, it may take a while for me to get back at you while I try and think of the right thing to say. You need to be delicate when talking about mental health and that's difficult to do when it comes to written language. I want to make sure you understand what i'm saying and don't misinterpret my words. Because I know how much it hurts when you spill your heart out and someone comes back to you with (what you read as) a snarky response. 

Thank you for those of you that understand that. I hope this didn't push you away from talking to me :] Even if you are someone who doesn't suffer from anything you can still try and chat with me, feel free to messages me complaining about the weather or how your mom is just such a jerk who like doesn't understand you at all (aka pretty much every message I posted on Myspace back in 2008) 

Meditation

     I am someone who has always had really intense anger management issues. When I was a teenager they were exacerbated by a growing brain tumor and since I had had most of it removed I have been a bit calmer, but no where near what I would consider normal. 

     I have been looking for a way to help me for a long time. I tried running, boxing, sports, taking up a multitude of hobbies, but nothing really worked for me. Then I started meditating. 

     I had avoided meditating for a long time because its something that was always brought up in the confines of religion, and I am not a religious or spiritual person. So I pushed it to the side. But recently I've seen a lot of people talking about it, people who, like me, are not religious in anyway, so I tried it. Within days I was feeling better. When something made me moderately angry, I was able to pull myself away from the situation and find what was actually the cause of my emotions. I was finding that things that would usually have me smashing things, would only make me feel a slight twinge of annoyance. 

     I wish someone had talked to me about it sooner. Someone had told me meditation really has nothing to do with religion or spirituality (unless you want it to, that is :D) I feel like high school would have gone a lot smother for me had I been doing this all along. 

     So if anyone reads this, I would like you to take a minute, close your eyes and just focus on your breathing. When ever your mind wonders, gently bring your focus back to your breath. When ever you start to feel any negative emotion, try to take a step back and focus on your breath. No one will notice you are doing it (unless you are like me and breath loudly)

     I personally find it helpful to listen to guided meditations as the brain surgery left it difficult for me to focus. At the moment I use an app called Smiling Mind. They have hours worth of free guided meditations, unlike other apps that have maybe one or two with the rest behind a pay wall. There are also a ton on youtube, but I find the ones there tend to be more faith based, so I don't personally find them helpful- but you might! So I welcome you to seek out as many as you can, don't give up just because the first thing you try didn't help. But know its not for everyone, and no one is going to be cured by mediation or feel better over night. I still see a therapist, I still take my medication, but this has been a great thing to add on. Even my therapist noticed it helping my anxiety in some areas. 


     I also like to meditate to ASMR videos at night to help my brain settle down, Heather Feather being on of my favorite asmrtist! (I make them too, but they are more for hobby right now as I do not have the equipment necessary for great sound  production) 

     If you already meditate, feel free to comment, email or kik me (EnirhtakB) and tell me what you do! I would love to talk to you about your practice or help you set up a new one.  You can also just kik me if you feel like chatting, i'm not the best conversationalist or advise giver but i'll try!